Today was a kicker of a day. It started two days ago when I “accidentally’ didn’t go to bed until 12:30am and was then unfortunately woken up about 4:30 by a little someone scared of shadows in her bedroom…and on and on and on. Yesterday I was grumpy. Today I was downright bipolar.
Woke up and immediately started arguing with the middle child about how she cannot have a kitty face drawn on her face before she goes to school and then, when she realized it was a school day, why she had to go to school when really she just wanted to stay home so I would take her to the store to buy her presents. (Where do these ideas come from???)
On the flip side, she did make both her and her brothers’ lunches…
Nobody listening, having to yell, resulting in crying and whining all the way to school.
Not eating properly…Trying some new vitamins that probably made me feel sick…or maybe it was the Dairy Queen burger and blizzard combo…
Kids immediately wanting to go to the bakery after school but having not eaten all their lunches….saying no…arguing…saying yes to thrift store shopping and becoming irritated when they can’t find anything but still need to buy SOMEthing…just because we are there.
Wanting to cry on the way home when they realize I won’t take them to the bakery and the “you’re the worst mom ever” starts again (I hear that multiple times a day)…
Freaking out when one trips over a cord that I’d already explained twice to be careful for and knocks over the newly acquired crayon melter-maker thing…not really spilling anything major (thank goodness) but being exasperated all the same.
Telling them I need just 10 minutes to lay down but the minute I do, I have a bum to wipe and an argument to settle.
Having one beg to use his computer but instead convincing him to read only to find him downstairs watching mindless cartoons 5 minutes later.
Letting them have hot chocolate and then having to wipe up the spills. Arguments over who gets which cup and can I please get them straws to drink their “lukewarm” chocolate with…and spoons…and bring it to the table for me…
Not having anything planned for dinner nor feeling like making anything remotely healthy but remembering I fed them Alphaghettis last night and knowing I’d better come up with something better today.
Running upstairs to grab the computer only to be “mommed” halfway up…
Fighting with the oldest who is complaining about the lasagna I pulled out of the freezer…and it being the fourth time we’ve had pasta this week so he’s not eating it and will instead have a popsicle.
In the midst of it all, trying to find what to be thankful for….
Kids enjoying the new items they bought at the Thrift Store…being able to rest while the older two were at school and the younger played on the iPad for a bit.
Having them watch TV just so it was quiet enough to enjoy a small glass of wine. Having two hours of amazing conversations this morning with good friends.
The beautiful sunshine that allowed us to go coat free most of the day. The littlest happily joining me on our errands of mail and groceries and not complaining at all. Receiving photos in the mail.
Having frozen lasagna in the freezer and finding it early enough to make a dinner out of it. Having wine on hand…getting three things crossed off my 10 item to-do list. Receiving multiple compliments on client images.
Two different ways to approach the day. I try not to let my life and feelings be dictated by the first version. I try to focus on the second.
I remind myself that every story has two sides and there is always a different way to view any given situation.
And so today, when I feel I’m failing as a parent and trying to decide between homeschooling or running away to a deserted tropical island, I simply choose to sigh, sit down and have a glass of red wine, remembering tomorrow is another day and God is full of grace.